tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5226506400762782826.post7473080245980554901..comments2023-10-24T11:30:47.750+01:00Comments on A Head Full of Beauty: The GameOpheliahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06804728080052960584noreply@blogger.comBlogger4125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5226506400762782826.post-49397432856495598292011-07-25T04:52:32.892+01:002011-07-25T04:52:32.892+01:00Every girl on earth feels the same things you'...Every girl on earth feels the same things you're feeling. I am completely, unthinkingly certain of this. We all constantly second guess ourselves and compare every facet of who we are to everyone around us. Beautiful girls think they're ugly. Thin girls with poise think they're clunky and sloppy. Cool, calm, collected people all crack sooner or later because all of that screaming inside can only be stifled for so long. No one sees themself as other people see them. I've never been self-assured or confident about anything in my life. People tell me I'm crazy, and I turn right around tell them they're the crazy ones. Self-effacement isn't such a rare human quality. And trust me... in my dark times this knowledge is immensely comforting.<br> <br>There is a guy I got to school with who I am kind of obsessed with. Pathetically so. I hate him for the same reasons you hate the men who don't worship you. We are totally in the same boat, and even if it's selfish and bitchy then I'll stand by it. I'm used to being in a position of power over guys... but not him. I had sex with him, and you'd think I'd be able to use that as leverage in all of our interactions, but instead I turn into this meek lump of Jell-O. My friends listen to this story and are shocked because they think I'm so confident and downright predatory when it comes to guys. (I mean, Christ, that's how I got him in bed in the first place). I have to live up to the glory of that role, and it is fucking hard.<br>I doubt myself for probably no reason.<br>Everyone around me knows I can get whatever I want... but it's self loathing that holds me back.<br>Ugh. <br><br>xSummerwhat if summer...http://www.blogger.com/profile/06745197837769715801noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5226506400762782826.post-8171375613323002092011-07-25T20:27:30.239+01:002011-07-25T20:27:30.239+01:00i cannot wait until i am a proper city girl :) i w...i cannot wait until i am a proper city girl :) i want it so bad! i go to university in birmingham, but i consider that just a stepping stone city. i will live in london!! it holds so much fun and glamour for me at the moment<br><br>xxS.http://www.blogger.com/profile/07771393123165708758noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5226506400762782826.post-64403310566558000282011-07-26T02:49:11.067+01:002011-07-26T02:49:11.067+01:00I share your love for men in suits. They don't...I share your love for men in suits. They don't seem childish or immature, but strong and confident. They are dangerous, but it is worth to play a game. I am in college, but I am tired of boys. Never liked them, found them young and foolish. <br>Perfectionist myself failed many times, and that put me down so much. <br>Hate that I try my best, but do not succeed much. The outcome of the New York. In order to be perfect here, we have to give it all until we burn. <br>There is a problem with all the young women that we are not good for anyone. <br>I love London, and I wish to move there sometime, or at least go for semester abroad. <br>You write really beautifully.Alinahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08558587782802296785noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5226506400762782826.post-53807176385360518472011-07-27T19:19:28.978+01:002011-07-27T19:19:28.978+01:00I believe we all act like someone superior and per...I believe we all act like someone superior and perfect when we're in the presence of others, and then we sink into who we truly believe we are, someone inferior and imperfect, as soon as we are alone. I think that's why i am so terrified to be alone...Ana's Girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10588270419894145137noreply@blogger.com