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  1. Ana's Girl2 June 2010 at 03:03

    You can do it, love. I can too. We can do it! Keep on believing.

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  2. Alice D2 June 2010 at 04:11

    My thoughts are with you.

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  3. comatosechild2 June 2010 at 19:49

    i hope for your happiness :]
    ♥ idil

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  4. Plum Girl4 June 2010 at 02:13

    Good luck, darling.
    I adore your blog so very much and you in turn, though I don't know you.
    Just know we're all here and know what you're dealing with.

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  5. The Thrifty Book Nerd4 June 2010 at 03:34

    Stay strong! I believe in you.

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