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I've been so inspired by the lovely Pasco who is doing so well on her ABC regime that I have decided to follow in her footsteps!
I feel like I have really been lacking strict regime and control, and what better way to sort myself out than to follow the 'Ana Boot Camp'. So much better than messing up and then deciding to fast and then messing up and then getting high on restricting and so on and so on...
Just routine. Control. Rules. Boundaries. I need these things.

Check out the ABC list on the right hand side of my margin for error when I've got to tick it off everyday on this blog in front of you all!

I was going to wait until my exams at uni finish (2nd June) but by then it will be too late. I want to get the ball rolling and start shedding weight before then. I start my job (only a temporary one for a month or so) on 3rd June, and although it's only a load of middle-aged men with beer bellies and motherly women with massive hips, I have to be thinner than I am... because at the moment none of my office wear actually fits me properly... shit that is humiliating to write.

So, from tomorrow :) Tiny Ophelia is coming back to her wardrobe of tiny clothes!


  1. Im so happy for your inspiration. Great pic too.

  2. Good for you for starting right away! I'm sure your office wear will fit better in no time. :]


  3. hm... I haven't seen this one around in a bit. Keep us posted on how it goes!

  4. what happens after day 50? just wondering can u just eat a healthy regular diet after? gud luck with the diet I may try it during summer! xx

  5. Thank you so much for you're (teehee) delightful comment. I go a little crazy over spelling and grammar too - my biggest pet peeve is when people spell definitely "definAtely". I think it gets spelled incorrectly more often than not!

    I wish you all the best of luck with the abc. Even though the first few days are higher in cals, I think they are the hardest. Once you get going you can really fall into the mindset and it gets a lot easier. I also found that allowing myself to overshoot by 100 cals from time to time helped me stay in control, but it depends how strict you are I guess.

    Much love! x

  6. Ah, I just got caught up with your last few posts. I'm glad your fast went well and I'm sure you looked beyond amazing at the dance.

    I'm thinking about joining you two for ABC...

  7. hmmmmm Abc - i am going to keep an eye on your page and see how well you are doing. It sounds inviting but looking at thae days 500cals frightens me. i have been surving on less than 300 cals a day - fasting when i have the energy too.

    I hope it works out for you - ill be in touch. Good luuuuuck Xx

  8. good luck. i lost 4 pounds in 2 days doing ABC!!!

  9. hello ophelia,
    thank you so much for your inspiring words.
    good luck with the abc!

  10. As soon as I get to the point where I'm not mia'ing it anymore, I'm going to do ABC!
    Make sure to update on your progress! I wish I could join you, but I'm not ready for that yet, and I know it... Maybe in about 5 days to a week...
    Good luck, lover!


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